Submitted by erik (not verified) on Tue, 01/29/2008 - 8:14pm.
I am 20 year old male. I have had some occasional deja vu experiences throughout my life but nothing like what has happened since September 2007. It hit me like a freight train one afternoon. It was the most surreal and disturbing experience I have ever had and have to a degree. Imagine the most realistic and strong deja vu/vecu you can think of and that is what I experienced. Out of nowhere I felt like I had just traveled back in time; every moment and thought was a living memory. I went insane! I was so taken and convinced by this feeling that I started believing to a degree or theorizing that I had actually somehow traveled back in time. I had almost constant deja vu for about three weeks even in my dreams; I don't know how I kept my sanity. It was so real that I started to contemplate any and all possibilities about the universe including star trek-like phenomenon and the idea being doomed in hell for eternity for not accepting god or living by Him/Her/It. Deep inside I hoped and survived on the idea that it was just some illusion formed by stressing my brain to the point of some sort of psychosis etc. After about three weeks of this insanity it finally started to taper off in frequency and severity. It still comes and goes for sometimes hours at a time, even four months after this started. For example I had deja vu dreams last night and it has happened throughout today and to some degree while I write this very comment.
You see, I had been taking medium-large doses of psilocybin about once every 2-3 days for about a six weeks. That September afternoon was the end of week six. I have used cannabis off and on since I was about fifteen. I have taken large doses of DXM approximately thirty times (from what I have researched a connection has been established between use of psychedelics and recurring deja vu/vecu). I have also experimented with a number of other psychedelics. These are all good scientific explanations for my experience. I probably just stressed and twisted my mind to the point where something happened neurologically to cause this/that issue. I also have a history of depression other psychological quirks starting since I was young. I cannot tell you how this has changed me, lately for the better but in the past for the worst. Other people have said deja vu makes you more aware of yourself and your surroundings, it sure has for me. Hope this entertains or helps somebody. I stopped most all my use psychoactives and that seems to be helping. God bless you all and God forgive me for the dumb satanic dabbling.
-erik
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20 year old male and recurring deja vu
I am 20 year old male. I have had some occasional deja vu experiences throughout my life but nothing like what has happened since September 2007. It hit me like a freight train one afternoon. It was the most surreal and disturbing experience I have ever had and have to a degree. Imagine the most realistic and strong deja vu/vecu you can think of and that is what I experienced. Out of nowhere I felt like I had just traveled back in time; every moment and thought was a living memory. I went insane! I was so taken and convinced by this feeling that I started believing to a degree or theorizing that I had actually somehow traveled back in time. I had almost constant deja vu for about three weeks even in my dreams; I don't know how I kept my sanity. It was so real that I started to contemplate any and all possibilities about the universe including star trek-like phenomenon and the idea being doomed in hell for eternity for not accepting god or living by Him/Her/It. Deep inside I hoped and survived on the idea that it was just some illusion formed by stressing my brain to the point of some sort of psychosis etc. After about three weeks of this insanity it finally started to taper off in frequency and severity. It still comes and goes for sometimes hours at a time, even four months after this started. For example I had deja vu dreams last night and it has happened throughout today and to some degree while I write this very comment.
You see, I had been taking medium-large doses of psilocybin about once every 2-3 days for about a six weeks. That September afternoon was the end of week six. I have used cannabis off and on since I was about fifteen. I have taken large doses of DXM approximately thirty times (from what I have researched a connection has been established between use of psychedelics and recurring deja vu/vecu). I have also experimented with a number of other psychedelics. These are all good scientific explanations for my experience. I probably just stressed and twisted my mind to the point where something happened neurologically to cause this/that issue. I also have a history of depression other psychological quirks starting since I was young. I cannot tell you how this has changed me, lately for the better but in the past for the worst. Other people have said deja vu makes you more aware of yourself and your surroundings, it sure has for me. Hope this entertains or helps somebody. I stopped most all my use psychoactives and that seems to be helping. God bless you all and God forgive me for the dumb satanic dabbling.
-erik