as many of u said me too i cant even share my torture with anyone not even my ONLY friend(we're not anymore)..mom was always wonderin what's wrong with me and why i cant make new friends like the rest of guys my age..she knew i have this blushing thing but she didnt know how much it was killin me inside
now i'm 20 dont have any friends..lost the only girl i ever cared about coz she knew my little secret...i'm always thinkin about the future..how am i gonna meet my gf's folks(assumin i managed to find a girl feelin comfort next to her)..how am i gonna get past my marriage day with the spot light on my face..how am i gonna make a good impression in an interview
i just cant b myself not even when i'm alone....when i'm in a crowd and they're havin a discussion about something i ALWAYS have something interesting to say but i just cant coz i tried be4 and u know the rest..so ppl always point me as the weird guy coz i decided not to talk much with anyone and not goin to any public place at least not by myself...sad huh..it's unfair coz i'm a good guy and i'm nice to everyone and i have a good sense of humor but i just dont know how to show that
i just wish i can feel confident without worrin about what ppl think
and u know what's funny ? ppl likes me on the net but when we meet they get shocked
just hope it ends someday coz i cant go the rest of my life like this ..and thnx 4 lettin me express..it feels good