"Knowledge is an island surrounded by a sea of mystery"- Chet Raymond, page 30
One of my go-to questions with any sort of presentation, be it a play, a school lesson, a presentation, etc, is "Is it accessible?" When something is presented to me, I don't like to leave feeling absolutely clueless. Maybe this is a privileged state of mind: that I should have some ownership over the thoughts or ideas that people present. The LBCP book talks a lot about doing things for yourself (ie: not everything needs to be performed or presented) and allowing them to be vague. This is making me realize that maybe some performances and presentations aren’t meant to be easily accessible, and you are supposed to just enjoy the ambiguity, and also makes me realize not everything I do necessarily needs to be shared (which I struggle with…if someone doesn’t know I did something, is it real?) These are ideas I strongly "react" to instead of "reflect" on (I believe that is the language used in the book at one point, but I lent my copy to a classmate and can't double check at the moment). I react by feeling uncomfortable with keeping something to myself or by trying to be okay with vagueness; I think to myself “okay, I want to have an open mind, but I feel like I can only be so open until my brain falls out”. But at the same time, the quote above really appeals to me because I feel like it is vagueness, floating around something concrete that I can hold on to.
In our classes we have great discussions and I’ve learned a lot, but I think I may be coming up with more questions than answers, and this makes me uncomfortable, even if it is a normal, healthy part of the learning process. I’m not super into photography, but I think it would be interesting to attempt the activities in the book and see if I am able to let go of some of my need for control and answers, and just work on being mindful and live within the ambiguity.