I appreciate your level of honesty here as you analyze your struggle with a life decision in the context of dreams and constraints, hopes and fears. While I respect the importance of your wrestling with these choices as mutually exclusive, maybe even opposites, I wonder whether there might actually be a “third option,” a series of decisions that will allow for both risk and security, a more complexly textured “happiness”--? Might we consider a way of understanding “education” that would embrace both or even multiple roads? And in terms of class, you note the way class can put constraints on pursuing "happiness"; do you think class has any impact on how we think of happiness?
 http://serendip.brynmawr.edu/exchange/files/The Story.docx