Thursday's Silence Class
"Sometimes it's harder to attain inner silence than outer silence. The dog stopped barking and the kids have gone to bed, but your mind has a lot to talk about and it knows you can't pretend you're not at home." -Linda Solegato
I stumbled across this quote today and it reminded me of Thursday's class with Professor Beard. I thought she had such a peaceful presence about her, but the end of the conversation made me a little uncomfortable. We talked about the Chittister text and our discomfort with silence because "it is silence that brings us face to face with ourselves" (Chittister).
The conversation forced to me to reconsider how I self-reflect - or don't - and I think I resisted doing that all along by keeping myself busy. I think it's easy for me to overwhelm myself with work and forget to relax and enjoy the silent moments in my life. I liked Professor Beard's suggestion that we take little walks in silence (and that a trek through the Valley of Death ought to do the trick). Even now I forget to take it easy when I go through said valley because I'm always thinking to myself, "Gotta get to class, gotta grab lunch, can't forget to print that paper in Canaday..." and I don't allow myself to enjoy the brisk walk. I'm going to try to incorporate more fun/relaxing moments in my day. I think there is this issue on campus concerning the mental health of the students and I've definitely had moments where I felt like I needed more support in that area, so hopefully doing these little things can help me do my best here. I think I've lost my sense of spirituality because of my workload and I need to work on creating a healthy balance between the two.